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I remember…

Have you ever felt that God has been watching you?

I know you all are thinking doesn’t God watch everyone? And I believe the answer to that is “yes.” However I truly feel like God has been watching me since I was a child…

I remember when I was in sixth grade it was the “big year” of middle school, lockers, gym uniforms (uh remember those?) and new friends…

I remember turning the hall for the first time and seeing “them”…

For the first time in my life, I saw an entire class of special needs children. A whole class! I was so intrigued by them. Who were they? Where did they come from? Where have they been for the last 6 years? How come I never saw them in my school before?

I pondered these questions each time I saw them…

Who are their families? How come I didn’t ever know them?

I remember seeing them walk in the halls together; eating lunch together and I just sat and wondered…

I remember seeing many of my peers ignore them…

Laugh at them…

Point at them…

Make fun of them….

And it just upset me….

And I used to wonder, why? Why did this bother me so much? They weren’t related to me… I wasn’t one of them…

But for years and years I wondered about them and their challenges… Why were they born like that? What is going to happen to them?

I wasn’t really a curious child about to much but for some reason this just seemed to strike a chord with me…

Back then we didn’t have programs where the disabled population was included with the regular children, and I remember wishing that there was… I wanted to know these children; I wanted to be their friend…

I was always nice and said “hello” as I passed them in the hall as my peers looked the other way pretending they were invisible.

It just bothered me…

After middle school I never saw “that class” again, that group of special needs children again and I wondered; where did they go? What were they doing?

And then “life” as it has its way of doing kept moving on and I stopped thinking about the special needs population and I graduated from high school and college…

Step in about 17 years…. November 1992….

Shelley, your daughter has Cerebral Palsy.”

I will never forget that day… I will never forget those words… And then I remembered all those children and how I wondered each day…

And then I knew why God was watching me… God choose me… to care for this beautiful little girl whose life would be much like those children I wondered about each day…

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Shelley Kramm is the founder and editor of I'm Still Standing and The DC Ladies. Learn more about her and her inspirational family here and connect with her on Twitter, Facebook, Linkedin, Google+ and on about.me.

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Comments

  1. It sounds like he found a very special mom to give a very special child to.

  2. Hilljean says:

    God truly was preparing your heart for a very special person. This was a wonderful post–stopping by from sits :)

  3. Sounds like He knew what He was doing. Interestingly, I also always felt drawn to special needs children, and was convinced that I was going to have one. Now I have 2 children and they are both pretty healthy, it makes me wonder what is in my future…

    • just keep an open mind… ya never know how your life can change in a flash! wishing you and your family wonderful things! thanks so much for popping by today! <3

  4. Wow! You are right, God chose you and He prepared you. Thankfully your eyes and heart were open!

  5. Jenifer says:

    Shelly, your openness and sensitivity are what makes you a great parent–traits that have been within you your whole life—a real gift for you family.

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