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This week I met with Rebecca (my nutritionist) for the first time; we had a wee two and a half hour introductory session to review “my life and eating habits” and talk all about food, nutrition, how and what I’ve done in the course of my life “diet wise” and how a “healthy makeover” will improve my life.

For those who don’t know me, a little background; I was raised in a large family with 5 brothers and sisters and in our house at meal time if you “took it” you “ate it.” There were also many times that I can remember having a “heated” discussion at our table and my escape was to bury my face in my plate. Hand to mouth, just eating and staying quite, hoping the conversation would not turn to “me” being the one getting the criticism of the day!

As I grew I was active, swimming and playing outside as a child and teen not having what I would call a “weight issue.” When I went to college my food intake consisted of Diet Coke and small meals, and I was pretty active; I went to a large university so I did lots of daily walking. A few years later, as a “bride” I survived on what I will call the “brides diet” of one meal and Diet Coke through the day so that I would look ever so thin at my wedding.

Even though there were just a few times that I would call how I ate as “dieting.” Food was always something that I “did.” As many with any type of obsessive problems “do” I “used” food. When I was happy, I ate, when I was sad, I ate when I did well on a test I ate to celebrate, when I did bad on a test I ate because I was upset, oh, I ate for just about any reason.

Over the course of the next 22 years my weight I would go up and down. I’d follow Adkins and lose 25 pounds and slowly it would creep back up, and then I’d get sick of what I looked like and then I would do Jenny Craig, or Weight Watchers, you name it I’ve done it! But I never realized what the real issue was…

I am an Emotional Eater!

My life is a wee bit stressful; I am the mom of a healthy 21 year old daughter, and an 18 year old daughter with special needs and wife of an entrepreneur. The last two are what causes a lot of anxiety in my life. And so I “eat.” When things are good, I eat, when things are problematic etc etc.. I think you see the pattern here…

As Rebeccaand I chatted in my kitchen about the things that trigger my eating. She told me to take a moment to ask myself before I eat, “Am I hungry?” I mean really hungry, the kind of hunger when your stomach growls.

Serendipitously I had a plate of grapes on the table and I popped one in my mouth. Rebecca stopped and asked me, “Are you hungry?” I thought um not really, but come on it was a grape! But that is a perfect example; I was “happy” and chatting so not even thinking I popped it in my mouth…

Take this little challenge…
• For one day, write down when you eat…
• Why were you eating…
• Were you actually hungry? Snacks too!

Come on after all I’m baring my “soul” you can too!
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